Wednesday, November 23, 2005

So I’m sitting here waiting for the teacher to hurry his ass up and check my web-site before I submit it....... I’ve been thinking a lot in the past 15 minutes.. Seriously I have... i just came to the conclusion and solution to something.... *SIGH* my lord... ~~~~~~ my whole life ok maybe not my whole life but I have been waiting.. and hoping... wishing for things... dreaming... and "wanting" my gosh, I should get a move on already... right know I feel a lot of anger and I don’t exactly know why.. everything should be right, Right? But it isn’t I feel that there is something replacing my happiness with some evil curse that’s come upon me... gosh when can I just live that perfect life I’ve long for my oh my... I feel like shit at this very moment I..

[ PAUSED ] ~~~ got to see the teacher....

Back.... FCUK... I’ll write when I’m home.. left... TIME: 4:29pm ~~~

okies its now 4:34pm... and im saving all my work and going to go home.. the weather is sheit and i want to be home.. ahh home is such a sacred place to be.. my room is a sanctuary place to be gosh i miss it, i want to be there now.. OOOhh but NOooo Mz moniffah is dragging me for another coffee BUT im hungry, havent really had anything to eat all day and im bugged... goshh my second one of the day wait actually i had an English breakfast tea with my "soy" this morning so i guess thats okies.. I'll just now complain about the friken weather... COLD, COLD, COLD.... i think i should get something to eat. Got to go nows and submit work, about friken time! gosh! man i have mentioned the word "GOSH" and "FRIKEN" alot.. any hoo I'll write later when im home... left.... TIME: 4:37pm ~~

TIME: 11:45pm [ U HAVE NO CLUE ] ~~~ *SIGH*

Well I have been studying since I got home till now. I’m so tired my eyes are going blind.. And worst of all.. I’m hungry!!!!!! But so tired to make food.. so I decided to give my self a break and sit here write this blog entry then watch some anime currently watching “My Hime”… man what a day I’m so exhausted.. So much work I have to do gosh… ahh I don’t have the motivation to do any thing at this point… life is so crap!!!! I want TO BE SPONTANEOUS!!!!! Man I have always believed in all that “live life to the fullest” and be Spontaneous and stuff but right now OMFG my life is far from it!!!!! I HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW… gosh I feel so friken frustrated right now.. WHY? Aggrhhh I don’t know exactly why.. no wait I think I might have a fair reason why… hmm… I’m frustrated coz its so fudgen hard for me to turn things normal.. do a complete 360 degree turn and become normal like wtf why is it so hard for me to do gosh. GROW UP KIM. I just don’t have that kind of power. To be all normal and act like... im feeling noxious ~~ *SIGH* I wish I did… how do you do it?! tell me how?! i desperately need to know...... does it like come second nature to u?! im pmsing. When the fudge am I going to stop *SIGHING* freak me dead… im making no sense what so ever ay??! i dont know what im thinking, i think thats my cue to go now. *SIGHS* ~~~ I better click onto my anime now... *IM OUT*

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Tummy is rumbling... another day gone by...

I am so incredibly hungry right now.. my tummy is turning inside out.. all I ate today was umm.. a piece of toast this morning and a sushi roll all till now.. oh yeah and I had a café mocha and an English breakfast tea with soy milk before I got home.. so basically till now I haven’t really ate any thing! and I have no food to eat at the moment.. Except from hmm.. Noodles, (which I don’t feel like), confectionary lollies, and yeah… omg OMG so friken hungry I cant study.. and I have a website due tomorrow.. arghh im getting distracted by cone right now…. She loves me and I love her… WAIT actually she doesn’t love me she loves AHEM ***** I’m not sure if I should say eheheheh cone just seriously made my day.. you know how???? By saying this to me…. “don’t worry I’ll get a bazooka and crack him” man that’s the sweetest thing I recall her ever saying to me PWAHAHHA funny woman.. that some funnt sheit! ~~~ Me and cone go way, way, wayyyyyy back ehehe I’ve had so many weird and extraordinary moments with this byatch… ahhaha.. she thinks I go floppy when I get tired and stuff and then she takes advantage of it and abuses me! Pushing me around and stuff PWAHHA *Kimmie puts up her fist and says “wanna fight bitch???” eheheheehehehe I swear man I remember back in the days when we would just go to karaoke just me and her… why cone?? Why?? Ahaha our little secrete..! and like cone is like my best friend that can only talk to me about my random things that I usually go on, and on about.. Seriously.. I have my moods where I just talk about really random stuff… like really random and cone is the only person that ever listens to me and contributes to my conversations! For EXAMPLE: I would be like “cone don’t you think that building looks cool” she would be like “yeahhh, its is.. do you ever wonder how they built it?” and it goes on and on… most people just ignore me…! But cone has the decency to listen awww… cone thanks babes!!! Ehehe.. OMIGOSH where is my food I AM HUNGRY!! I better go do some studies or else I’ll end up cleaning toilets when I’m older ahahaha (as Connie would say) *PEACE OUT*

[ still trying… *SIGH* ]

Monday, November 21, 2005

Possessive or Obsessed?

When can u officially say to some one that their being to possessive or obsessed?

How can you tell? Ok the way I see it.. if you care about somebody so deeply it doesn’t matter what it takes you would actually go with that feeling and stick by them and fight for what you feel is right? Right? Or is that wrong in doing so?. But not letting them do things that they wish to do and not giving them there freedom to do as they please that’s when being possessive comes in.. The truth about me? If I love you.. “I love you…” LOVE isn’t a word I through around.. you know what’s funny at the same time I know it’s a really rare feeling to come across towards somebody and when it does its something that you should hold on to.. but then again I hate that word I’ve tried to avoid it before. I learnt the hard way you can’t avoid it… WHY? Coz boi oh boi it’s an ultimate feeling to encounter but then it sux’s coz… ahhh… I’m not even going to explain….No matter in what way it is, the love that I give I will never get back.. If I hand my heart out to you it’s yours to keep and if u choose not to keep it, it’s your decision so do as you please… I wish for many things right now.. Many things…. but if you add all these many things, it adds up to the one thing, to the one person…..

*SIGH* only if you could just…... *SIGH* just only….. *SIGH* just once…. *SIGH* ahhh…

Kimberley’s out…

*tooodlles coooodles* ~~~~ * trying to keep up with you.... :) *